The last couple of days I have been so cranky. Todd couldn't do anything right and believe you me, he was trying. Everything annoyed me, my patience was wearing thin about every-other minute.
Poor Noah, poor Todd.
I started realizing who the common denominator was and of course...yours truly....
So I started praying about it. "Lord, I need help! What is my problem?" I thought it had to do with the fact that I am still having symptoms (could just be latch on, or rather tear-off issues from Noah) but I don't know.
I was also asking Todd about it too. "What is my deal?!"
Right after I heard that from the Lord Todd came in and said "You know, perhaps maybe because you know what you want to do and all the things you want for our new lifestyle(paraphrased) you've lost sight of what we do have and stopped being thankful."....sheesh
Ok, you got me. I didn't tell him right away that the Lord just told me the same thing but it was good to hear and then get confirmation two minutes later.
I tried hard to work on it, but I was still having a hard time. As I was working on the that I was trying to observe if what I was eating was effecting me. too I had started adding oils back in and suspected that perhaps I was still having trouble digesting them. I took them out and today I feel like a whole new person. I have energy and patience and feel genuine love and appreciation for my family. :)
It's so crazy how food can effect/affect us so much. I truly don't even believe it. I am reminded that we are spirit soul and body....this really makes me understand how important it is for us to take good care of ourselves. Not only to just be healthy and sick-free and live a long life but for our spiritual well being as well.
Tuesday, September 13, 2011
Friday, September 9, 2011
de-liver me!!
OK, not really. I do need my liver, but man, going through a liver cleanse is not fun.
I think that it might be the hardest thing I've done on this whole diet. First of all, how is someone supposed to know that their liver decided to rid itself of toxins anyhow? Besides feeling horrible and having lots of gas...
I thought that things were starting to look up and I was making progress, moving forward. I even took Noah camping with my extended family. While we were there Deborah told me to speak happy thoughts to my liver. I thought it very odd that she would say that out of the blue...but she's always good at word of knowledge so I should have known something was going on right then and there.
I got home and went to the chiro and she told me that I looked yellow and should to a liver panel.
Well, she scared some of the living daylights out of me! So what do you do when the daylights are scared right out? Call your mom of course :).
She told me that I was tired (which I was) and I should go to bed....among other things. She called back later and told me that from what was going on it looked like my liver decided to clean house......speaking of cleaning house, I didn't clean the house for a week. My poor husband. ;)
So that was an adventure, I was so out of energy and couldn't eat any fats. And hardly any meat, I ate a lot of eggs. I guess when your liver does it's thing you should eat very lightly so all your energies aren't taken up digesting. We watched movies and slept (Noah and I)
Once I found out what was really going on I felt quite encouraged. Your liver is one of the last things to detox (so I hear). So alas I think I must be close(I sure hope so).
I have had remarkable energy and feel as though I could do anything. I've been doing exercises and feel like I have lots of strength. I thought that I had really gotten weak. I guess I was just working through all kinds of toxins before because I found there is strength under my flab :).
Today has been a bit discouraging because there is still burning in my nipple. Sometimes I don't feel anything and sometimes it's stronger. I shouldn't be feeling any symptoms by now!!
I had a talk with the Lord about it and I feel like He said He was going to heal me. So I am eagerly awaiting my full healing :). Co-laboring you know. I felt like He told me in the beginning that I was to walk out my healing, I am a changed woman! Now, I think He is going to heal me :)
You all can believe with me.
love you all!
I think that it might be the hardest thing I've done on this whole diet. First of all, how is someone supposed to know that their liver decided to rid itself of toxins anyhow? Besides feeling horrible and having lots of gas...
I thought that things were starting to look up and I was making progress, moving forward. I even took Noah camping with my extended family. While we were there Deborah told me to speak happy thoughts to my liver. I thought it very odd that she would say that out of the blue...but she's always good at word of knowledge so I should have known something was going on right then and there.
I got home and went to the chiro and she told me that I looked yellow and should to a liver panel.
Well, she scared some of the living daylights out of me! So what do you do when the daylights are scared right out? Call your mom of course :).
She told me that I was tired (which I was) and I should go to bed....among other things. She called back later and told me that from what was going on it looked like my liver decided to clean house......speaking of cleaning house, I didn't clean the house for a week. My poor husband. ;)
So that was an adventure, I was so out of energy and couldn't eat any fats. And hardly any meat, I ate a lot of eggs. I guess when your liver does it's thing you should eat very lightly so all your energies aren't taken up digesting. We watched movies and slept (Noah and I)
Once I found out what was really going on I felt quite encouraged. Your liver is one of the last things to detox (so I hear). So alas I think I must be close(I sure hope so).
I have had remarkable energy and feel as though I could do anything. I've been doing exercises and feel like I have lots of strength. I thought that I had really gotten weak. I guess I was just working through all kinds of toxins before because I found there is strength under my flab :).
Today has been a bit discouraging because there is still burning in my nipple. Sometimes I don't feel anything and sometimes it's stronger. I shouldn't be feeling any symptoms by now!!
I had a talk with the Lord about it and I feel like He said He was going to heal me. So I am eagerly awaiting my full healing :). Co-laboring you know. I felt like He told me in the beginning that I was to walk out my healing, I am a changed woman! Now, I think He is going to heal me :)
You all can believe with me.
love you all!
Saturday, September 3, 2011
little breakthrough
A few weeks ago we went down south to Villa Park to visit Todd's family for some down time. It was nice to get away from regular life but I had underestimated the amount of time I spend in the kitchen preparing and eating food! Plus being on vacation with a little one is a lot different than when it was just the two of us. We had some sorting out to do as far as letting each-other have times of rest while one would take Noah. We had some good communicating about all that :).
It's so weird to think of life before The Noodle, I can hardly remember, and it was only eight months ago...well kind of ;) I wouldn't change a thing though, we are very blessed.
Anyhow, I had a little breakthrough while we were there with the diet. Todd's parents offered to stay home with Noah while she napped so that Todd and I could go for a little hike together. I've been so weak lately Todd promised to walk slow if I needed him to. As we were going up the hill I felt a burn in all my muscles. Of course I've felt "the burn" before but this time it really felt good. You always hear that "feel the burn!" well, I would always push through that feeling because it wasn't a good one, but I had nothing to compare it to. This time, it felt so good to just keep moving onward upward faster and faster. I could hear Todd next to me struggling for breath, I told him "I could go faster!" he encouraged me to do so and I speed walked up the rest of the hill. It felt so good and when I got to the top I got a high. I couldn't believe how good I felt, I was a bit shaky because I hadn't been used to that kind of exercise in a long time, but man, it felt good. I haven't felt like that in years! Even when I was running very regularly for a year or so I didn't feel that good. I think the last time I felt like that was when I was a little kid, I can't wait to be able to feel that way a lot more often!
It's so weird to think of life before The Noodle, I can hardly remember, and it was only eight months ago...well kind of ;) I wouldn't change a thing though, we are very blessed.
Anyhow, I had a little breakthrough while we were there with the diet. Todd's parents offered to stay home with Noah while she napped so that Todd and I could go for a little hike together. I've been so weak lately Todd promised to walk slow if I needed him to. As we were going up the hill I felt a burn in all my muscles. Of course I've felt "the burn" before but this time it really felt good. You always hear that "feel the burn!" well, I would always push through that feeling because it wasn't a good one, but I had nothing to compare it to. This time, it felt so good to just keep moving onward upward faster and faster. I could hear Todd next to me struggling for breath, I told him "I could go faster!" he encouraged me to do so and I speed walked up the rest of the hill. It felt so good and when I got to the top I got a high. I couldn't believe how good I felt, I was a bit shaky because I hadn't been used to that kind of exercise in a long time, but man, it felt good. I haven't felt like that in years! Even when I was running very regularly for a year or so I didn't feel that good. I think the last time I felt like that was when I was a little kid, I can't wait to be able to feel that way a lot more often!
Wednesday, August 10, 2011
new direction
I am encouraged because I feel like this second half of the diet is going to be focused more on getting stronger. It's cool to see for myself that when I put my mind to something I really can do it. My used-to-be flabby will is being strengthened and gaining momentum. :)
As I was doing my almost daily ritual of looking at yummy desserts that I can't have. I was kind of getting sick of it. And instead started looking at some fitness stuff. Different sayings and also pictures of women who are physically fit and it really helped me. I feel like my focus really changed. I started walking and doing a bit of cardio and I already feel better. I think that it helps push the toxins through my muscles. And it's nice to feel tired at night because I was doing something not because I feel achy and gross.
One thing I've learned from that, though I've heard it all my life, is: What you focus on will change you. I never really believed that that was true. I didn't think that we could really be that weak. I can see though that things (life movies) that I knew had no real relevance to my life did in fact tweak the way I thought about things. It wasn't until today that I realized that, because of the shift with my focus on exercise. It's exciting and yet daunting. It makes me really want to focus on the right things more and more.
I think that the symptoms are gone from my nipples, completely. That feels like such a relief. So now I just need to start feeling really good, which shows I am really on the way to recovery!! That feels sooooooo nice!
It's kind of hard figuring out what to give Noah because she can't have the usual mashed banana or fruit anything. I've given her avocado and she still doesn't like it. She is so funny, she'll give me this huge grin and start gagging. :) But she's still gaining weight and doing great so that's good.
I am so glad to be able to write a happier blog, last week felt so hard and uphill, but this week is feeling so great! Praise the Lord!
Thanks for your encouragement and cheering me on, it really helps.
loves!
As I was doing my almost daily ritual of looking at yummy desserts that I can't have. I was kind of getting sick of it. And instead started looking at some fitness stuff. Different sayings and also pictures of women who are physically fit and it really helped me. I feel like my focus really changed. I started walking and doing a bit of cardio and I already feel better. I think that it helps push the toxins through my muscles. And it's nice to feel tired at night because I was doing something not because I feel achy and gross.
One thing I've learned from that, though I've heard it all my life, is: What you focus on will change you. I never really believed that that was true. I didn't think that we could really be that weak. I can see though that things (life movies) that I knew had no real relevance to my life did in fact tweak the way I thought about things. It wasn't until today that I realized that, because of the shift with my focus on exercise. It's exciting and yet daunting. It makes me really want to focus on the right things more and more.
I think that the symptoms are gone from my nipples, completely. That feels like such a relief. So now I just need to start feeling really good, which shows I am really on the way to recovery!! That feels sooooooo nice!
It's kind of hard figuring out what to give Noah because she can't have the usual mashed banana or fruit anything. I've given her avocado and she still doesn't like it. She is so funny, she'll give me this huge grin and start gagging. :) But she's still gaining weight and doing great so that's good.
I am so glad to be able to write a happier blog, last week felt so hard and uphill, but this week is feeling so great! Praise the Lord!
Thanks for your encouragement and cheering me on, it really helps.
loves!
Tuesday, August 9, 2011
amendment
The last post I wrote turned out to not be so bad. I made the cauliflower fritters the next day but just made them like pancakes and Todd liked them and I loved them. So, I was quite happy with them. I just finished the last one tonight...yummy!
Saturday, August 6, 2011
bombed!
tonight I tried making this recipe...
don't they look so yummy?
so inviting...."eat me!", they say.
Well, I made this
Hmmm, you see I can tell the difference.
and I used my precious ingredients, that are even more precious now that I am trying to stay on a budget. The reason they turned out bad is because I used something to replace the eggs (arrowroot just didn't cut it!)...and didn't have cardamom, or mint.....I used coconut flour (that might not have been that bad though) and didn't use enough oil to fry them. Because like I told you before, my ingredients are quite presh. :) To top it all off I have lots more of the "batter" in my fridge. probably waiting to go bad so that I can throw it away because I can't throw it away right now.
But, instead of crying I laughed....so that's good. That is my story for the day!
Thursday, August 4, 2011
over half way there!
I guess this is the hard part of the diet (for a blog anyhow). Just the day-in, day-out eating and going on with life. Recently I've given up fats for a time. I think that my liver is congested so I am trying this to see if I feel better and my liver will de-congest. ;) I get tired after I eat and have some other not nice things going on.
Man, it just feels like I am giving up more and more things. And I've been wondering if I've been eating too much again. It can be disheartening trying to make sure I am doing everything the right way. This week has been a bit trying. I thought I was detoxing (once again) but in fact I was just dehydrated.
So I am downing the water and hoping it doesn't come out of my eyeballs :).
I just realized that this is my 49th day of the diet. Lord willing, only 41 days to go! That is very exciting. On the other hand, I hate when I know exactly what day I'm on because that seems to make it go by slower, but in reality it feels like it's going by pretty swiftly. PTL!!
I understand that I needed to walk this out so that my lifestyle would change but, God, can I be healed now?? :) I want my energy back. The diet is supposed to make you have LOTS of energy so I'm just waiting on that!!
Perhaps I need to exercise, I do, but it's kind of hit or miss. I haven't been able to push myself to do it when I am feeling lousy.
Ok, ok, this shouldn't be a downer blog. I just made brussels sprouts and absolutely love them!! I've never made them before but I tried this recipe off of pinterest and duuuuude, they are sooooo good. I made two pounds of them for dinner. Todd loved them too and I polished the rest off for lunch. I want to make them again soon! You should too!
Noah is doing great, teething and also climbing on everything and anything she can get her hands on. Todd is working a lot, like usual and we are almost ready for the school year to start.
We just started looking at our finances and trying to kind of live on a budget....oh boy. I'm excited about the challenge and "gulp" at it as well :)
Well my peeps. I think I'm signing off. Thanks for tuning in. Love you!
Man, it just feels like I am giving up more and more things. And I've been wondering if I've been eating too much again. It can be disheartening trying to make sure I am doing everything the right way. This week has been a bit trying. I thought I was detoxing (once again) but in fact I was just dehydrated.
So I am downing the water and hoping it doesn't come out of my eyeballs :).
I just realized that this is my 49th day of the diet. Lord willing, only 41 days to go! That is very exciting. On the other hand, I hate when I know exactly what day I'm on because that seems to make it go by slower, but in reality it feels like it's going by pretty swiftly. PTL!!
I understand that I needed to walk this out so that my lifestyle would change but, God, can I be healed now?? :) I want my energy back. The diet is supposed to make you have LOTS of energy so I'm just waiting on that!!
Perhaps I need to exercise, I do, but it's kind of hit or miss. I haven't been able to push myself to do it when I am feeling lousy.
Ok, ok, this shouldn't be a downer blog. I just made brussels sprouts and absolutely love them!! I've never made them before but I tried this recipe off of pinterest and duuuuude, they are sooooo good. I made two pounds of them for dinner. Todd loved them too and I polished the rest off for lunch. I want to make them again soon! You should too!
Noah is doing great, teething and also climbing on everything and anything she can get her hands on. Todd is working a lot, like usual and we are almost ready for the school year to start.
We just started looking at our finances and trying to kind of live on a budget....oh boy. I'm excited about the challenge and "gulp" at it as well :)
Well my peeps. I think I'm signing off. Thanks for tuning in. Love you!
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